and sometimes you write blog posts instead of working...

i really need to be working tonight...i had every intention of spending the evening doing work related things. you know...but that's not happening.

i was talking to someone at work today, and realized that i've now been divorced for almost 9 months. can you believe it? it seems like just yesterday my whole world was being taken from under me and i was lost. i was scared. i was hurt. but i wasn't broken. then this amazing thing happened and i blogged about it here. remember? the moment that i realized that there really is a reason for everything that happens in our lives. from that moment on, things have just gotten better.

i feel like i've made a lot of changes in my life lately. changes that have lead to my ability to be happy again. i'm my old self. i like my old self. and i like being happy. you know what else i like? that this is a happy that is deep inside. it's not just on the surface. my soul is happy.

i think most of this comes from the changes i've made to grow closer to my heavenly father. i've been actively trying to make the gospel the center of my life. and i can tell a drastic change from it. it's funny because it's not like i had to make huge changes at all. just a few adjustments here and there. but the feelings of peace and happiness, the blessings, have been numerous and strongly felt and recognized.

i've also made some adjustments to how i view myself. my self image has not always been great, but making an effort to change that has helped me so much. it's not easy, and i have to remind myself a lot, but really learning to love myself and be happy with the person that i am has made a world of difference.

i have an amazing support system. so many good people in my life, and i can't even begin to name them all. it's overwhelming to me to think of all the people that have supported and loved me through this. thank you. to anyone who ever prayed for me, called to check in, helped me move, gave me a place to stay, provided a shoulder to cry on, went to sonic with me, just spent time with me, gave me advice...i could go on. and you know who you are. thank you. 

i'm not saying my life is suddenly perfect and i'm happy all the time. but i'm happy most of the time, and my life is great. i'm dating an amazing guy, i love my job, i love my roommates, i love my family and friends, and i love my new found happiness. 

xoxo-meg

life is good...

it really is. yesterday as i was getting ready to say my prayers i sat for a minute to think about all the blessings i have in my life. all of the experiences i've had over the last several months, all of the people who have had an impact on me...all of the tender mercies i've experienced. i am a lucky, lucky gal. it's hard for me to put into words how i feel. it's hard for me to express my gratitude without sounding super cheesy. but i can tell you this much...i am happier now than i have been in years. and it's a culmination of many different things that are making me happy. it's refreshing. and i recognize how lucky and blessed i am. and not a day goes by that i don't thank my heavenly father for this wonderful life i have. yes, there have been some curve balls, but really...i have it pretty good. 

this past weekend i had the opportunity to run the ragnar relay with 11 of my amazing co-workers. this was an experience i will never forget. i get emotional when i think about it. i think i speak for everyone when i say it was definitely one of the highlights of my life. i loved having the chance to get to know my co-workers outside of work. to talk about person things, to bond, and to support each other. i ran my last leg with a bum knee. i could barely walk. but i finished it...6.8 miles. up and down hills. at 4:30 am...it was 36 degrees outside. i've never been in a more physically grueling situation. it was exhausting, it was hard, but it was totally worth it. even if i crossed the finish line in tears. my team was there to meet me. they cheered for me. they were proud of me. i was proud of myself.

 here are a few pictures. they can't even begin to show what an amazing experience it was. and they're totally out of order...

our van after all of our legs were completed. i love this group of people.

heading up to breckenridge. the most beautiful drive i've ever been on 

continental divide! so much fun 

getting ready to run the first leg...so nervous!

these are my sexy sweats. 

after my second leg..high fives all around!

the disappointment of a bum knee. i was in so much pain.

total team effort. supporting jordan through his last leg.

 ragnar was amazing. we're doing it again next year. one of the most rewarding experiences ever. i love the memories i made on this trip. and i love my team. and my job.

xoxo-meg