and sometimes you write blog posts instead of working...

i really need to be working tonight...i had every intention of spending the evening doing work related things. you know...but that's not happening.

i was talking to someone at work today, and realized that i've now been divorced for almost 9 months. can you believe it? it seems like just yesterday my whole world was being taken from under me and i was lost. i was scared. i was hurt. but i wasn't broken. then this amazing thing happened and i blogged about it here. remember? the moment that i realized that there really is a reason for everything that happens in our lives. from that moment on, things have just gotten better.

i feel like i've made a lot of changes in my life lately. changes that have lead to my ability to be happy again. i'm my old self. i like my old self. and i like being happy. you know what else i like? that this is a happy that is deep inside. it's not just on the surface. my soul is happy.

i think most of this comes from the changes i've made to grow closer to my heavenly father. i've been actively trying to make the gospel the center of my life. and i can tell a drastic change from it. it's funny because it's not like i had to make huge changes at all. just a few adjustments here and there. but the feelings of peace and happiness, the blessings, have been numerous and strongly felt and recognized.

i've also made some adjustments to how i view myself. my self image has not always been great, but making an effort to change that has helped me so much. it's not easy, and i have to remind myself a lot, but really learning to love myself and be happy with the person that i am has made a world of difference.

i have an amazing support system. so many good people in my life, and i can't even begin to name them all. it's overwhelming to me to think of all the people that have supported and loved me through this. thank you. to anyone who ever prayed for me, called to check in, helped me move, gave me a place to stay, provided a shoulder to cry on, went to sonic with me, just spent time with me, gave me advice...i could go on. and you know who you are. thank you. 

i'm not saying my life is suddenly perfect and i'm happy all the time. but i'm happy most of the time, and my life is great. i'm dating an amazing guy, i love my job, i love my roommates, i love my family and friends, and i love my new found happiness. 

xoxo-meg